Wandering

Wandering.

Wandering in the half familiar streets,
Marbled by the beauty of the summer sky beginning to darken.
The warmth of the breeze reminds me of the childhood walk from beach to station, for the sleepy train ride home.
Laughing at the sunburnt lobster red faces.

Mind and feet wander independently, all grown up and nowhere to go.

My mind strays, searching, restlessly, yearning for company.
Trying to search for a human to share my silence.
The one to be happy with in my quietness.
Kidding myself that I am content to be in my own world.

My feet lead the way, aimlessly at first, right then left, until as if by surprise the streets are all too familiar.

I am outside your house.
You.
I think we breathe the same air, wander the same streets.
You.
I want to see.
You.
I think would be happy to share my silence, content in my quietness.
You.
To laugh with like children again.

I pause, so by chance we could meet and say hello
My minds race, heart beats.
Too scared to call.

So I wander again
Making sure this time my feet take me home,
Well, via the chippy.
But the chips make no comparison to the northern ones.
Eaten on the way to the station.
Slightly chilly now, rapped in my father’s cardy.
Laughing at the lobster red faces.

SKB

Walking to the station

Today’s the sort of day, when I play music in my ears, and make movies in my head, as I walk through the grey cold city I feel connected to.

3 wind turbines spin on top of an urban hill, spin in unison powered by the nature we cannot see.

A dog the size of a small pony, stops and stares.

The man in the mural eyes look sad today, who is he looking at.

The water in the fountain plays.

Why is the field in the middle greener than the rest?

People weave an intricate dance but have no idea who they’re dancing with.

What it is to feel alive when you open your eyes.

SKB 

Lily.

Lily.

Tears roll elegantly down her cheeks and she looks into the eyes the woman she loves so deeply.

A love so strong that her body aches.

She crumbles,

too tired to hold her head.

The Love for her was a breath away

And nature took it

Turned it in to dust

Blew it out

Blew it away.

Lungs too tired to raise or fall

Eyes too heavy to open

Sinking heart too tired to beat.

Only hoping that where she lies next, a peace it will bring and she will find all she left for.

The one she loved like love itself.

 

Lily Wilber 1919 – 2001.

SKB

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